here are some thoughts from the last few days. some are insightful and maybe even important, others are trivial and sillier than this song.
> i get annoyed with the cliches that people toss my way, and that i find for myself, but really, cliches are true, and they're good. as long as we don't settle for just the phrase, but seek to live it out.
> i got accepted to serve with a ministry in quito, ecuador. i'm most likely moving there in july. WAIT, WHAT
> i get caught up in wanting to make a big difference in the world that i lose sight of what's in front of me. i lose sight of the fact that a smile and a conversation and a hug can make a difference in one person's life, which is making a difference in the world. it doesn't have to be all big and facebook-status-worthy things.
> i'm so thankful for the community at reality santa barbara, even though i'm not super plugged in. i feel a sense of belonging and family regardless of my level of involvement.
> i'm so tired of drama. i'm twenty-three. isn't it time for us to grow up and move on? have conversations like adults?
> at the same time, i don't want to grow up. i like having fun and being silly. i'm not ready for a big girl job, and even though i'm heading in that direction, i don't think i'll ever really grow up.
> i need to learn how to finish a book, instead of starting a new one and abandoning the previous one half way through. i think i have commitment issues.
> i'm jealous of my friends' big kid jobs, but at the same time, i know i'm not designed for a 9 to 5 office job. at least, not one that i'm not super passionate about. i'd rather work at starbucks or have an unpaid internship and be broke than work a desk job because i feel like i need to have a "stable job"
> boys are silly and i don't understand.
> i'm excited for whatever adventure i go on next, because then i'll be able to blog about adventures. i only have so many adventures here.
Monday, April 30, 2012
Sunday, April 29, 2012
the good
"the good is the enemy of the best"
i've been settling for mediocrity. i've been settling for what's in front of me, for what's comfortable. i've been settling for the easy route. i've been settling for the good, when i'm capable of the best.
i think we all do this. here's how it looks for me: i talk about all the things that i want to do with my life. i want to save orphans. i want to feed the hungry. i want to bring the gospel to all the ends of the earth. i want to love people. i want to be Jesus' hands and feet. i want to make a difference. i want to change the world. i talk and talk and talk about it. everyone knows, everyone expects great things from me. i wear my passion and my heart on my sleeve, but i never get my sleeves dirty. i never stick in and get my hands dirty to actually make a difference. i say i'll do it. i remind myself that i'm young, i have time. so i settle. i tell myself that one day i'll go do something. one day i'll have enough money, or the right opportunity.
i'm good at pretending like i'm good at waiting, but really i'm really impatient. i'm terrible at waiting because i'm bursting at the seams to make a difference. i'm itching to go out into the world and do something worthwhile. after waiting for too long, i grow too comfortable, and i start to get scared about stepping out of my comfort zone, scared to take the leap that i was itching to take just weeks earlier.
this phrase, "the good is the enemy of the best" is incredible. i heard it in an interview with a non-profit for their fellowship program. this non-profit is full of people who are passionate and driven and who go above and beyond the call of duty, trying to make a difference in the world. trying to end modern day slavery. they work overtime. they lose sleep. they work their asses off, fighting for justice and a better way of life. they won't settle for the good. the good is what keeps us from going after the best.
i know that my personal worth and value isn't based on what i do, but on who i am, and how i do what i do. God doesn't look down on me for waiting in this season. but i know that He has designed me for more, and that the passion inside me is straight from Him. He wouldn't have lit the fire in me if He didn't want to me to tend to it.
so i'm going to stop waiting and stop being afraid and i'm going to take the leap. i'm not sure where, hopefully i'll know in the next week or so. but it's a step by step process. it isn't a one-time thing. adventure after adventure, that's what my life will be. i'm excited to keep seeking after the best, and not settling for just the good.
i've been settling for mediocrity. i've been settling for what's in front of me, for what's comfortable. i've been settling for the easy route. i've been settling for the good, when i'm capable of the best.
i think we all do this. here's how it looks for me: i talk about all the things that i want to do with my life. i want to save orphans. i want to feed the hungry. i want to bring the gospel to all the ends of the earth. i want to love people. i want to be Jesus' hands and feet. i want to make a difference. i want to change the world. i talk and talk and talk about it. everyone knows, everyone expects great things from me. i wear my passion and my heart on my sleeve, but i never get my sleeves dirty. i never stick in and get my hands dirty to actually make a difference. i say i'll do it. i remind myself that i'm young, i have time. so i settle. i tell myself that one day i'll go do something. one day i'll have enough money, or the right opportunity.
i'm good at pretending like i'm good at waiting, but really i'm really impatient. i'm terrible at waiting because i'm bursting at the seams to make a difference. i'm itching to go out into the world and do something worthwhile. after waiting for too long, i grow too comfortable, and i start to get scared about stepping out of my comfort zone, scared to take the leap that i was itching to take just weeks earlier.
this phrase, "the good is the enemy of the best" is incredible. i heard it in an interview with a non-profit for their fellowship program. this non-profit is full of people who are passionate and driven and who go above and beyond the call of duty, trying to make a difference in the world. trying to end modern day slavery. they work overtime. they lose sleep. they work their asses off, fighting for justice and a better way of life. they won't settle for the good. the good is what keeps us from going after the best.
i know that my personal worth and value isn't based on what i do, but on who i am, and how i do what i do. God doesn't look down on me for waiting in this season. but i know that He has designed me for more, and that the passion inside me is straight from Him. He wouldn't have lit the fire in me if He didn't want to me to tend to it.
so i'm going to stop waiting and stop being afraid and i'm going to take the leap. i'm not sure where, hopefully i'll know in the next week or so. but it's a step by step process. it isn't a one-time thing. adventure after adventure, that's what my life will be. i'm excited to keep seeking after the best, and not settling for just the good.
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